YF today was fun!

the message on euthanasia was... interesting. (: i guess sometimes you need to look at it the 'faith' way and not so much on practicality, which is what i've been thinking of ever since philo class last year, haha.

and i thank God for my life, i think it's seriously perfect now. (: i mean, i can't ask for anything better, at least!

i enjoyed group time. :D

thank you to justin and ji en for trying to teach me how to skate! i think i am a super bad student though. i keep forgetting to bend my knees and so i always end up crashing into a lot of people. :/

i'm sorry!

but thank you for being patient with me!

and THANK YOU to everybody else who supported me/caught me! (: i'm sorry for crashing into you guys.

i still can't skate but it's okay, i'll get it. (: someday!

i think it's really depressing to be sec 3. sigh.

especially for gym.

it's not that i don't like it or anything, i do! but sometimes it can get so trying.

we train so hard, 3 times a week for a year just so we can do that perfect routine on the competition day.

it's crazy!

and now i'm sec 3 i feel like a caged bird which can only fly within my fairly spacious cage.

for the sec 2s they still have one more competition after this year's, and 2 more years to practice for that day.

for the sec 4s once they finish their comp this year they're free!

and what are the sec 3s?

we're in between.

we're done learning our b div routines, and even though we're looking forward to comp this year, it just means we're looking forward to our false sense of freedom (since everyone else is) cos we're worrying long term- our ultimate competition in 2010.

once after 1 april this year i will have to start training very very very hard to make sure i don't screw up my 2010 comp- i don't want a repeat of my 2008 comp.

and so i'm not looking forward for this year's comp to come, at all.

i won't be free like the sec 4s; i'll just be disillusioned into thinking that i'm free, when actually i still have one more year to train. sigh.

i'm definitely not looking forward to the rest of this year.