that happened this week! (:
1) attended my first choir practice on sunday!
that was pretty fun. (:
i wasn't really expecting a lot, so i found it pretty interesting!
we're learning the song something about joy in serving Jesus, which i think is very apt for me to learn as my first song in choir!
(: i think i'm going to enjoy myself in this ministry!
2) made ice-kachang-flavoured ice cream on monday night!
at diane's house. :D
or rather, attempted to haha.
i'd say it was a pretty good attempt, and the BEST plain ice cream we've made so far.
just very very sweet! but next time we know we will cut on the caramel. (:
any suggestions as to anything else to add to ice kachang ice cream? so far we only have the syrup (green, rose and gula melaka) and cubes of jelly!
next time we shall have a sleepover!
then can wake up at odd hours of the night to put our flavouring in, haha. (:
it'll be fun!
3) went for gym the first time in 2 whole weeks!
and nearly died.
we did conditioning the ENTIRE training. never-did-before in my life until tuesday!
the whole night i was jelly, and wednesday i was achy!
but i like conditioning better than jumping, haha.
4) I CUT MY HAIR :D
it's a momentous occasion, because i haven't cut it for 10 months already! (except the fringe)
so now i have a v-shaped hairstyle, very layered and thinned by the hairdresser, who spent a very long time cutting my hair, and picked up a bunch of it every few minutes exclaiming, "wow your hair is very thick!"
haha that's why i cut it. it was a bit too thick and long and getting annoying.
but now i kind of miss it. my tail is so short now. ):
i wish i took a photo of all the hair in the salon that day. it was like, this huge bunch lying on the floor when i was done.
it did feel kind of sad.
but never mind, it'll grow back! (:
5) jolene and i have a lot of shared memories this week!
like indulging ourselves on ice cream, haha.
and watching our favourite tv serial on thursday night together.
spamming each other's messenger with messages.
a bit lame, but still sister-ly!
i can't imagine doing them with other people. (:
you know recently i've been feeling very not-up-to-standard, which is true in every way.
when i see the people in my life around me, they're all so good, and so- i don't know how to say it, but you can kind of say, perfect, in at least one area of their lives.
like sab and karen are smart. they sit next to me, they do ALL their work, and they never fall asleep in class. their grades are good too.
and diane is very active in church. she's so enthusiastic about serving and she looks forward to youth every week, and her saturdays/sundays are fully dedicated to God.
yin xin and etinne are so good at gym. they're hardworking, they're flexible, and they're strong.
why do i have such awesome friends when i'm not an awesome person myself?
why is it that everybody can sleep 4 or 5 hours, and i have to sleep at least 6 or 7?
why is it i think i study hard enough, but don't get the grades i want?
why am i so lousy?
i wish i could do at least ONE thing in my life good, for once.
i'm kinda tired of being average all the time, haha.
i want to feel special.
i mean, i know i am. but i just want to feel it. to know that, i really am.
thank God that i know He still loves me.
no matter how lousy i am.
(:
