i have to say, i am disappointed with today.

i feel so drained even though i didn't compete, but trying to keep up with the surprisingly disappointing revelations my brain kept sending to me has now left me very very exhausted, especially in my mind.

sometimes i find it so enriching to be in the middle of everything, but most times being stuck there just trying to find a balance simply sucks.

i'm going to make sure that this day does NOT repeat next year.
it's gonna be MY comp.
and i'm gonna do it MY way, so that everyone can be happy.

on a happier note, WELL DONE would be an understatement for all those who competed today! (: i am really proud and happy for you guys!
please don't let whatever the judges' scores are get you down, cos judges are people and they'll have human bias too. but know that i'm really pleased with how all of you did, and seriously, it was good! i'm sure you guys know that too. (: don't let some stranger make you all sad and emo okay!

and also THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU to my batchmates and whoever else who got my very belated birthday prezzie for me! (:

i really wasn't expecting anything else after i got that very pretty and creative book of SIMs and MONEs, so it was a very very sweet and nice surprise. hahaha i think it's very cute! thank you to etinne too who named it so aptly: it's called vanilla moose! and they bought her because they said honey mustard (aka oily) and chocolate bean needed a mummy. (: so sweet right.

i've been having nightmares the past few nights, and not being able to sleep very well, so your prezzie is very perfect cos i will get to hug it tonight and think of all of you and not be scared any more. :D THANK YOU!

i feel so tired and drained now.

etinne and bernice, i wish you guys went for comp dinner. maybe i'd have felt a lot better with you guys around. but thank you for the company yin xin and tiffany. i love you guys. (:

you know what?

i think i shall go and hug my vanilla moose and go to bed.

cheer me up, someone.