today has been a day of pain but also one of many many precious lessons learnt.

and today i felt all vulnerable and small but yet so wise and old at the same time.

elisabeth elliot has been a huge encouragement with her lovely book passion and purity, which you should read if you haven't already. and even if you aren't thinking about a love life yet it's still a good book because it humbles you to wait on God. it teaches you to seize your feelings of passion and take them to God and basically, comes back to really, seriously yielding everything to God.

elisabeth elliot says it's the silence that comes with the waiting that's the hardest to handle. i couldn't agree more with her.

at the end of day the only thing i can say is, God, may Your will be done. i don't know what's ahead and i don't know what is going on either sometimes but i will learn to wait on You.

please help me.